I Am Enough, As I Am Now.

🔅this is flashback to over ten years ago 🎥 

I was in the thickness of my addiction / suffering / in a toxic relationship / PTSD / anxiety attacks / completely scared of life...

My brother Blake had come home from Australia to visit and saw the mental state I was in and basically locked me in a bathroom and said ‘look at yourself Cass’

...I couldn’t 😭 

For the life of me - I honestly couldn’t look in the mirror

I couldn’t face myself

I didn’t want to have anything to do with my choices, my looks, my actions, my unconscious behaviors....my trauma 

He pushed me until one moment I looked so deeply in my eyes and he told me to say ‘you are beautiful’

....that moment I broke. 

I fell to my knees shaking and crying because....

I didn’t even recognize myself anymore. 

👥 After my awakening....

Mirror Work became my biggest tool to understand my energy and trapped trauma

I started to integrate mirror work every single day 

Why?

Because, it’s the only thing that we as humans need to see 

Ourselves. 👥

The longer you stare at you

The deeper you start to actually see the layers unfold

And, feel the shadows appear.

For me personally,

Since I woke up to this life

I don’t believe in ‘necessarily ‘clearing’ our trauma

I don’t believe in always going outside of ourselves for guidance

What I have learned on my journey is that though it is beautiful and necessary at times to have those experiences and have others guide you and show you tools 

In the end....

It’s up to you to integrate those tools and

Love yourself enough to practice them daily...

The mirror became my best friend...

To see the shadows - to feel the trauma and breathe into it and through it 

but, 

NOT to ask it to leave...

Instead I would love the one in the mirror who has had to actually experience all of  that in this life time...

The more I loved every aspect of myself who’s feeling that 

I started to radically accept everything about myself

Which was really about integrating my trauma and not trying to push it down or away.

I didn’t want to make ‘little cass’ wrong

Or judge her

Or label her for it...

I just started witnessing the magic of allowing

All of it

Every aspect of Cass

And by accepting and looking at all of me.

It gave me space between me and he mirror to breathe through the anxiety, it helped me to let go of unconscious addictions and face the ‘why’, it helped me to be proud of myself, to heal the parts of myself that needed healing

But, in the end it helped me to radically love myself while again and fully embody.

It’s a process... 

By doing this - it helps me to see the magic I always knew was in me and 

Helps me to see that in others

Because, we are all reflections. 

The Mirror spoke to me and said ‘ Cass you are enough as you are now’

And, from there it was an ‘Every day Fairytale of Forgivenesses and Love.’

Mirror work works. 🥰😘👥🥰😘

Please understand that healing is a process.

The true healing comes from loving every moment of your journey exactly as it is.

Love the one who feels and experiences whatever emotion, trauma, moment that is coming up and watch the energy shift and witness the magic unfold.

I love you infinitely,

Cass