Heaven Is Your Life - A Poetic Dance Between Life & Death.

Once Upon a Time….

There was a little girl named Cassandra who was birthed into a world of addiction, pain, suffering and darkness. 

She always felt alone, as though she was sitting in the middle of a snow globe that was constantly being shaken.  But even then, she could still somehow see through the glass to a world full of Magic.

While growing up in such a toxic environment, Cassandra never truly felt seen, heard or acknowledged for the beauty and the love that she knew herself to be.

To cope, she was always entertaining the world - making others laugh, smile and feel loved. She wanted so badly to make sure others felt something that she did not, something that deep down she was seeking.

She always had this ‘voice’ inside of her – guiding her to the love within but she could never fully access or sustain it because of the darkness of her childhood. All the programs, the stories, the narratives and the trauma kept her powers hidden from herself for years.

It was just like being stuck in quicksand, the harder she tried to get free and remember, the deeper she felt she was stuck and forgetting.

When Cassandra was eleven, she was diagnosed with ADD/ADHD and put on Adderall – the drug that ‘stole her soul.’

That moment in Cassandra’s life was the moment her story radically shifted.

At that time, she felt certain that no one would ever ‘really’ see her. She felt that if being the love she knew herself to be wasn’t right or allowed for this world, she may as well check out early.

For the next fifteen years, Cassandra’s soul became numb and she was no longer creating her own story. 

Her mind and heart were still frozen in the lands of love and magic but her body and presence were living on auto-pilot in a land of addiction, self-sabotage, unconscious relationships, toxic environments, and abuse.  

Cassandra was not prepared for the next chapter of her story…

On April 7th 2013, in the thick of Cassandra’s addiction, she received a call from her brother Blake informing her that their eldest brother Jason had just died from a heroin overdose.

That moment in Cassandra’s life brought her to her knees and it begged for her soul to return home again.  

Upon the arrival of that moment, she was woken up to the reality that she was currently living in and knew the story had to change.

Cassandra decided that it was time to get sober and start trying to check back into this life again.

But Cassandra’s story wasn’t fully ready to be rewritten and a month into sobriety, on the evening of November 11th 2013 at 1:11am, Cassandra found herself intoxicated behind the wheel of a car, and moments away from hitting a ditch when she heard the words;

“I am ready to play.”

Seven flips, one tree and a five-foot fence later, she was awoken into this familiar world, the one that had kept her safe since she was a little girl in the snow globe, she woke up in the magic – in Heaven, with her brother Jason. 

While in this magical world, she and Jason danced within the clouds as he told her of her mission : that she needed to ‘GO BACK’,

‘Cass, you need to go back. You need to create a channel to allow everyone to know they are NOT alone.  But first, Cass you need to REMEMBER that YOU are NOT alone.’

Cassandra grabbed onto Jason for dear life, not wanting to leave ‘that’ magic, until she eventually let go. 

She fell through the clouds and the next thing Cassandra knew, she was sitting in a hospital bed, seemingly alone. But in actuality, for the first time in her entire life she had the deepest knowing she was NOT alone anymore.

As Cassandra sat in that hospital bed for days, hours, seconds…, she knew it was her moment to come back home to what she always knew herself to BE,

LOVE. 

She made a conscious decision in those moments to work day-in and day-out to become a deeper and deeper channel of LOVE and to not just speak of the MAGICAL WORLD she experienced, but to EMBODY it and CREATE it for others.

A LOVE and sense of MAGIC that whenever someone was faced with, they would have NO choice but to REMEMBER that love and magic within themselves.

Maybe they too had once forgotten about it, or ran from it, or numbed out from the fear of this world.

She knew that if she could show them that it was safe to come out to play again in this world as their most authentic selves that they could once again become the HERO of their own story and start to create the fairytale they have always dreamed of, just as she did. 

“I knew that God, Jason and Spirit were guiding me now.

I knew deep down I was sent to bring Heaven Down to Earth.

My Experience has been a poetic dance between life and death. And, I would have it no other way because…

I wouldn’t be here right now to help you remember that;

Heaven is your Life.”

Cassandra knew that as you read this story you would realize that this was not THE END for you but rather just a magical new beginning of your Happily Ever After.

From the deepest love for your soul and fairytale,

your perfect mirror,

Cass