What If Who I Hope To Be Was Always Me?

What if who I hope to be was always me?

I think this is profound to think about

For me - sometimes I get this intense anxiety out of no where?

I think I’ve had it all my life but I used to bypass it and not even know how to define it...

As I continue to dive into self work

I realize a huge part of me was always ‘thinking’ I had to do more, be more - be someone else, do something else....

I feel I gathered those thoughts because my whole life up until the moment I woke up was always based on me trying to be ‘approved of’

Trying to figure out this thing called ‘life’

And, in my own personal story I was always trying to beg for love because the souls around me barely knew how to give it to themselves, let alone us...

So, visually it’s like I always had multiple blankets layered on top of me suffocating me... layers of what other expected of me... characters I had to play to gain acceptance, roles I had to fulfill to get praise....all of those layers on top of me

Well, when I woke up and really started my self love journey I started slowing down

And, as I slowed down I could start to see that I am the ‘me’ I see I’ve seen in meditation for years - I am the me i ‘imagine’ in all my dreams - I am the ‘me’ I envision as my higher self....I am the me I always hoped to be 

I just couldn’t see it under the blankets of years of expectations...

I actually believe we are all the people we hope to be under all those blankets ...

It just takes time... out personal healing to ‘un-suffocate’ ourselves.

But, that’s just what I think 🤔 😘

My Deepest Love,

Cass